Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Honest Motherhood

The little face revealed in this post below has challenged me as much as it has made me fall in love.

Knowing I am the eldest of six children, you would imagine I was all prepared for the reality of motherhood, but can anyone really ever be ready for what it brings? Spitup. Diapers. Laundry. Bottles. Food Processing. Snuggles. Love.

Then in a flash, all of those things have turned into a whole new list. Muddy boots. Pee Pants. Poopy Pants. "Mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy" (while pulling your clothes right off your shoulders). Hitting. Biting. Negotiating. Crying (lots of crying, by both child and mommy). Personality. "Yes ma'am, mommy" (with held dropped in disappointment - every - time - they - have - to - say - it). And every now-n-then, the "I love you too, mommy."

Needless to say, I was, of course, warned about the terrible twos, but where were all the mom's who should have warned me about THREENAGERS? This is a real thing. My toddler has turned into a full blown, disrespectful teenager in a tiny body. How is this possible?

Mirror. Reflection. Oh no!! Has my behavior worn off on him? I know you all think that I am only the angel that you know and love, but I have a secret. When it's just me and my family and something sets me off, I raise my voice. They like to call it yelling. My temper is sometimes short, and my discipline not always consistent. And I look in the mirror and see why this sweet boy that was gifted to me is acting ugly. Then, guilt.

A whole flood of guilt creeps in like a raging storm. Of course, my angel is talking back and hitting. He gets spanked all day while I raise my voice and tell him what not to do, all. day. long.

Retreat. Thankfully, I was raised in a Christian home. Thankfully, I'm God's child. I know that I can retreat to His arms and ask forgiveness and receive it. I can ask for His guidance, and He'll give it.

Bad habits are hard to break. I can't sit here and tell you that I've stopped yelling. That we no longer spank without explanation. But I can tell you that if you listen, you will know if your actions are lead by Him or by flesh. And you can break the cycle. A little bit of change goes a long way because it leads to more change and future bettering of yourself, your child and your family.

It's like any relationship, really. Lines of communication need to be open and honest at all times, and there needs to be respect. When you feel yourself getting in a rut, stop and back up. Find a quiet place. Reflect. Pray. Restart.

Proverbs 20:15 says, " The rod and reproof give wisdom; but a child left to himself causeth shame to his mother."

I've been told this won't be the most challenging time of motherhood, but I can say, it sure feels like it. Some days, I do not know how we will manage to get through the day. Anxiety at an all time high, fear of failure creeping in, and then I remember Romans 4:20, "yet, looking unto the promise of God, he wavered not through unbelief, but waxed strong through faith, giving glory to God".

If you too have been suffering through hard days of parenting, stop and reflect on God's word, ask Him to share His wisdom and find peace in Him. For tomorrow brings a new day.

Today, I feel led to pray for you all of the mothers who are facing a challenging season. Won't you pray with me?

Dear Father, I come to you right now and praise you for who you are to us, for holding us in your arms and offering forgiveness when we are not worthy. Today, I ask you to touch the hearts of all mothers who need your touch, who need hope, who need confidence that they can be strong, loving mothers who offer biblical guidance and respect to their children. Grant them forgiveness for their shortcomings and love through their failures. Provide wisdom to change while we raise our children to be strong, loving, Godly people. We ask these things in your son's name. Amen.

I would not be capable of writing this without the love and support from other moms who have locked arms and decided to do this thing called motherhood with me. So, I'd love to hear from all the mothers who have "successfully" conquered this season with your first child. Sharing insights and tips with each other is what helps us become stronger, smarter moms. Comment below with your insight to support each other and me.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Putting Pinterest to Work

Have you seen the super cute barn doors all over Pinterest? My dad built one for my master bedroom last year, but it's been lost in the garage. Out of sight, out of mind much?

Now that it's in my sunroom, I'm finally getting it ready for installation. Just wait until you see the other side of this door, or better yet, wait until you see the finished product. Dad did a great job building this door from scratch and the hardware... it came from Etsy. Oh, and ya'll, the door will replace a set of curtains.

Yes. You heard that right! We currently have curtains up in the doorway where this will be hung. Needless to say, Pinterest is gonna make Mama and Dadee appreciate the darkness this will provide to our haven, and we might just enjoy the privacy too! 😉

This image is one that inspired me in the making of our barn door, but even more than that... the images on the blog where I found this image... they inspire me to dream about my forever home. Check it out here, and dream with me.

Visit House of Turquoise and Dream with Me

Come back. I'll post pictures of our finished product here, but in the meantime, I'd love to hear about a Pinterest inspired project that you completed.

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

All The Feels After Forty

At forty, I'm probably not supposed to wake up to eat cake with my coffee, but would you look at this delish, delish strawberry cake!!! I have to brag on my sister real quick... My family told me how she stepped up to help my husband pull some details together, including decorations and this homemade cake that apparently took her days to complete because of the bake, freeze and then ice process. Mmm Mmm Mmm, it's so good, and I think you'd also eat it for breakfast! (Maybe I can get her to provide the recipe? Ya'll be sure to check back here for a link.)

So, today, I woke up having ALL. THE. FEELS. Have you had these days? You know, sentimental like?

As I stand in the kitchen, in one that my mother raised me, freezing left overs from this fabulous surprise birthday party from my husband, I can't help but to remember all the other birthdays I shared here with my family and some other really good people.

I am so very thankful for the people God has put in my life. You've all helped mold me into who I am today. It might sound selfish to say "I am proud of who I've become", but without self-worth & self-appreciation, who would we be? So, I say it loud & proud. Sure, I have flaws, areas that still need a lot of improvement, but I also have acknowledgement & awareness of those things that need special attention. (Can't say I had such self-awareness at 21 or even 30.)

So, to be at 40, under a very special roof, celebrating with friends both old & old (because let's face it, the newer friends in this crew have still been around about 17 years... and that's just not so new) is just a feel good, feel good feeling!

If the new people in my life have been around for almost twenty years, how cool is it that I am still close with some people I've known for my entire life? And it's VERY COOL that some of them were here celebrating another milestone with me. Seriously, some of my friends were in this room with me when we celebrated my 15th, 16th, 18th, and maybe even 21st; and to be here at 40, having some of the same faces around, was just an incredible feeling!

Some people who learn that we co-habitate with my folks or that we live in Luthersville, GA ask me "why?" or look at me funny. This last weekend was a prime example of why we do. So we can be close, so we can share life, and so we don't miss out on each other. Of course, there are days that it's weird to live in the basement of the house my grandparents & parents built together, where my parents raised six children, but mainly because it's not my own. Other days, I just wish it was my own, so I might not ever have to leave. Would you look at this beautiful view and tell me that you wouldn't want to live here or raise your children here?

Reflecting on the life that I've been fortunate to live thus far, I'm feeling super blessed to cross into my forties, where my parents were when they crossed into their forties, both of us having the opportunity to raise our children in the middle of this beautiful piece of property, sharing family & milestones... Better yet, my husband shares my love & desire to be here in this environment (...and oh, is it so fun to see him in his element)! For this season, we are right where God would have us to be.

I'd love to hear back about from you about what part of forty got you reminiscing and having all the feels! Start sharing below.

#AllTheFeels #Blessed #Loved #Happy #Fortunate


Thursday, June 15, 2017

At Forty...

borrowed image from GoodReads.com

Let's be honest. As our birthdays approach faster & faster throughout the years, they bring a range of emotions that might look a bit like a heart rate - up & down, up & down. Though depending on your attitude, you might hear the music behind that beat!

As my B I G  4 O approaches, I find myself listening to the music from my almost forty year old library because when I was young, I truly expected forty to be have that "over the hill" feeling or maybe even "life is over at forty" feeling. For me, thirty was much harder. The music I hear today reflects acceptance, adventure, authenticity, change, gratitude, kindness, love and an abundance of memories! Maybe I see the glass half-full, as compared to thirty I saw the glass half-empty. It doesn't really matter. I'm here. I survived the last decade, and I have a boatload of experience, wisdom and memories to prove it.

I am looking at 40 as 4 perfect 10's because though there maybe a lot of difference between twenty & forty, some things that are the same-same-but-different. So, if you're about to hit this milestone, as I will in a week, think about some facts that are resonating with me.
  • At forty, I still cherish memories as if I was creating a high school yearbook, but at forty, that yearbook is in pieces. The memories are spread throughout drawers & boxes because I printed pictures, I saved a magazine clipping, but I no longer have time to even put them in one place, much less find time to put them in a photo album or a scrapbook.
  • At forty, I still dream like nothing can stop me, but at forty, I dream for others more than myself.
  • At forty, I still think of others, but at forty, the hand written note that I wrote them is found under a pile of mail that was misplaced and might never make it to the mailbox, much less get handed to them.
  • At forty, I still look at my surroundings trying to notice the beauty in this world, but at forty, my goggles are forty years old. I see with more clarity. At forty (not at thirty), I love swapping my forty-something goggles for toddler goggles.
  • At forty, I still say I am sorry, but at forty, I don't wait for perfect timing.
  • At forty, I still get disappointed, but at forty, I seek God's wisdom & comfort, rather than justice.

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Moving Day

I technically relocated to the country almost two years ago, but the market wasn't in great shape and our home was in need of some minor attention. Since my husband's work is on our old side of town, it helped having a place for him to stay a few nights a week. However, the updates to the house were pretty much complete and the commute has definitely taken it's toll. Time to sell.

The Lord blessed us by allowing us to cross paths with buyer's who were renting in our neighborhood. Though it's been an unconventional process, we remained faithful asking God to bless this transaction and our efforts to sell to them. Finally, we are scheduled to close.

With a closing date drawing near, we are making arrangements to start packing and moving, so tons of questions are crossing my mind. How will I pack the remaining items in my house with a 2 year old who requires A LOT of attention. Will he unpack the box I just closed? Can we get away without a storage unit or will we have to splurge on that too? If we do need a storage unit, will it need to be climate control? Thankfully, I have an adaptable set of people working with me to help us find all the answers we need during this transition.

Some obvious things on the to do list include packing, but I had to determine if there was any furniture that we could let go. Determined there is, I start photographing and listing items that can go from our current living arrangements, and, later, I'll add the items from the house we are selling. It doesn't matter if I'm yard selling or online selling IT IS STRESSFUL & NOT my forte.

Combine Stress Away, Orange & Peppermint in the Diffuser for a sweet stress relief!
If you're in the Luthersville, GA region and need a couch, faux leather chair, chest & nightstand or baby crib, let me know by sending an email. Here'a re pictures, but you can also find them on letgo or 5miles.

Antiqued Black Chest & Nightstand - $150 OBO

34" W x 21" D x 48.75" H
Good Condition, yet bottom drawer is in need of minor repair.


22" W x 18.25" D x 27" H
Faux Leather Chair with Ottoman - $200 OBO

Chair: 50" W x 37" D | Ottoman: 24" x 24"


Sturdy Couch - $100 OBO

88-90" L x 38" D

Sturdy Baby Bed - $75 OBO

Regular Size Crib

Folded: 6' L x 52" H
I am surely not the only one who's lived this, but if you know of someone who is looking for any of these items, please have them make me an offer. We are ready to letgo!!

What essential oils do you prefer in a stressful situation? Frankincense is also on my list.